So, I’m currently 41 almost 42. Who cares. I remember the empowering feeling of turning 40. That year my best friend and I went away to an awesome spa resort, for 3 days we celebrated being 40! We had said for so long that was something we were going to do and we did it.
That was the first time I had been away from my family and traveled alone without them. I missed them but the feeling of doing something on my own was liberating. Bucket list style.
I was Ana again for just a little while. As a parent, we all know how easy it is to lose who we are because we get so caught up in Parenthood. It’s a trap!
I also found strength I never knew I had..physical and inner emotional strength. I turned to prayer more and more as my meditation. Turning 40 was like turning to a new chapter. I think it’s because we start to realize.. holy hell, I am 40. Am I half way done with life?? So in turn you start to eat healthier and exercise more.. thats not a bad thing at all. You also throw caution to the wind and try not to forget to enjoy life.. have that glass of wine or piece of cake or both! The guilt trips we put ourselves on come to an end.
Forty is genuinely only a number as they say. Staying young at heart is the key. Not taking life too seriously. Laugh as much as possible. Being stupid silly with the ones you love. Don’t care what others think and most importantly do what you love. Live your life how you see fit.
Cliché I know, but it really friggen works.
However, do we actually make time for all of that? Yes, but clearly we don’t do it as often as we’d like too.
But damn, when I wake up in the morning and my knees hurt and ache from arthritis it’s disheartening to say the least.
Arthritis?? When the hell did that happen? Maybe it’s a fluke, maybe it’s just a sprain? Let me get the ice pack out- but then the next day it’s back again! Why is it when it rains my knee is even worse!??
Now I can tell when it’s going to rain because my knee is acting up. Seriously. I can predict weather.
Don’t even get me started on hot flashes.. yeah I get them a little! Suddenly at 3 am I am sweating just enough to disturb my sleep, so I can wake up feeling like I need a coffee iv drip to start the day. Hence, my love affair with coffee.
What the F is happening to me?!
Now you got me thinking, is 40 fabulous? Grey hair, arthritis and throw a couple of wrinkles into the mix.
Well, in actuality 40 is fabulous!! It’s freeing in the sense that all the things you once cared too much about don’t matter so much anymore. Your patience level is different and you truly don’t give as much energy to the things that cause unnecessary stress. Why? Because who has the time for it!!? Time is ticking away.
Every second that passes, every day we wake up – we are given another chance at being the best version of ourselves or at least continuing to be a work in progress. You realize now how precious time is because well, your 40!!! How did 40 happen so fast? Didn’t I just graduate high school?
Embrace yourself.. the more you accept who you are and what you are evolving into, you will find out the best parts of yourself.
Each day that I wake I give thanks. I also ask to be a better wife, mother, daughter and friend.
You see, it’s not about the number. Its about reflecting back on your life and seeing what’s been done, what needs work and what is yet to come.